Sacrifice

One night as I began my shifts at work and I worked hard and earned my hours. Exhausted, I went home to sleep for a few hours before school started. But then, realizing that I had a test that very day I began to have a strange feeling, and for the first time in my life, I didnt care about a test. I had to slap myself in the face and get into gear when I finally decided that I guess I 'should' study. I took the test, and finished the rest of my classes. I returned home to get ready for work again and summoned the strength to go on. I still kept working hard but, I realized that this cycle never ends. After work: "My body is now feeling like a rickedy wagon that has crooked wheels making it very difficult to move on. I dont know what I should do and my mind is not working as well as it seems." I came to find that day that I failed a test that I knew the answers to, and I should have passed with flying colors. But I somehow misread directions. I dont know what to do!
The weekend came! I sat and started reflecting on myself and thinking about the road ahead of me. The street I was on seemed to go up and up. I could hardly see the end of the incline, but faintly I saw the end and the rewards for the long and hard journey. Oh they were nice. But the road was uphill bothways and I felt like even if I made that journey, I would be too old and worn to really enjoy that. I then noticed a road that broke off and led me to another place. This road was easy and enjoyable. Lights flashing on both sides, and the incline was barely noticeable. I knew this road was good for me. As long as I did what was right and did my share, I would make it to the end of that road. It may not have been nearly as rewarding as the first road, but it was worth it to me. I turned to go down the road when I realized that the people and family that I would have were also quite different on the two ends. One was making it by and the children were content with life. But as I watched them go down their road, I realized that they had the same road that I was struggling down. This troubled me. And so I turned to look at the family and people that were at the top of the hill. Their road was eased and they seemed to have the enjoyment which I had longed for all the time in my life. I then realized that this road that I had just about headed down was a continuous circle that went around the mountain never going up to the top. Unless someone, makes the sacrifice to make that journey. Someone had to put all their efforts and time into the long hike. I looked at the road with lights and beauty around it. Its pull was great, but I cried, turned, and began my journey up the hill.

Cant fall asleep

I am what people call a "night owl." I sleep during the day, and work 12 hour shifts at night. Most times I can sleep through just about anything. Even my alarm clock and my family getting mad because it sounds through the house and Im still sleeping in my bed. hehe.
But sometimes I just cant fall asleep because I feel like my leg is being pounded by a hammer or something that makes it continually hurt. I have to raise my legs up on pillows and take a tylenol for it to go away. But I can never figure out what makes my legs hurt in the first place. Is it the blood pressure in them, or maybe it's the workout that I did the week before. ?? I dont know...
On other occations I just cant get to sleep and I spend hours thinking about a trillion things before I even start dozing off...but then its time to go to school and I had hardly even counted lamb #3. What is it that keeps us up all night. The test that I have that day, or maybe a personal issue like "why did I order the biggie size." I cant figure it out. I know that Im tired because I stayed up the whole night working so I just lay there wondering about how Im going to survive the next night at work and find time for school and sleep. So one day I heard about how you dont get the same sleep as most people do when they sleep at night due to the daylight and other inner stability issues. So I decided to try it by putting a huge blanket around my bunk bed to keep most of the light out. I call it "Fort Insomnia" hehe. But I am thinking of changing the name because it seems to help a whole lot. I dont know why, but when you sleep in the day, even if you get less hours of sleep at night in the dark, the few hours in the dark were better rested than the many hours in daylight. If anyone knows the reason to that fact, please let me know why.
But still, for many people, they still cant fall asleep even when it is dark and a thousand thoughts are going through their head. For them I believe that it may be an imbalance in their life either physically or personally, or an unresolved issue that just keeps them restless. But Im not a doctor and I really dont know the truth but if there is anyone out there that reads this and know the answer to solving insomnia, please help because this problem concerns thousands of people in many parts of the world.
-Jeremy