Journal 12

As the weekend approaches I lay in my bed trying to overcome an illness. I hope that it will pass quickly because not many things are worse than spending the week studying for tests and going to work only to spend the weekend sick in bed. But in bed, you get to have some time to spend thinking about the things in life. I seem to rejoice in the idea of life. It is a time to learn from mistakes and grow in many ways. I am sick, but I know that this illness will pass and that I will never again suffer this same illness. I love the body. It is so fascinating how it works! I marvel at the body's ability to fight an illness and then remember how to kill that sickness that the next time it comes knocking on the door, your body does not need to become ill by lowering its other systems, it just stops the sickness using the technique it had used to get rid of it the first time. One thing that I need to learn how to stop is procrastination. I do not know what it is that drives me to do this and makes it impossible to stop, but I fear that it is just laziness. I am nearing the end of school and I am not setting my priorities as they should. I am taking college to make a better living environment and open up opportunities, and to overall increase my future family's benefit. Right now though, my eyes are facing to the present time causing a conflict of sorts. May I spend my weekend sorting through the weaker parts of my life. I hope these things for my sake and my family's.

Journal 11

Life for me is like many others trying to find their way through their own jungle of life. Each jungle has its dangers and challenges no matter the direction they head in. I think that I am pretty sure of the general direction which I am headed, but I have many other little degrees of changes to make in determining my final destination. The dangers and challenges which I face can and will probably influence the degrees of change that I undergo. But the amount of change depends on the way that I handle the challenges. Would I become discouraged, or overstressed. Or will I be able to control my emotions and be able to handle the problems.
Self Control is the key to being able to handle many problems in life. To control ones anger or even to control ones mere thoughts resulting in a change in being will make all weaknesses become strengths. Everyone has the ability to change and control themselves. Although it may be harder for some people due a variety of reasons, we each have the ability to use self control. First, they must learn to see the flaws in themselves. Second, they must teach themselves discipline. Third, they need the desire to change that flaw. Only then can one learn to control themselves.
My objective for this journal is to relate this to my work in class. The relation comes with a problem that I face. Knowing my direction, I now must handle the challenges that lie on this path, but I cant seem to get past the second step to handling each challenge well. My problem is time. I am jugling too many things at the same time and I have to choose which I have to sacrifice. In the mean time I am sacrificing schoolwork; one of which I do not want to lack.